Why I am No Longer a Spiritual Speaker

Here is the reason in brief: 
 
A Multiple Choice Questionnaire

What Would You Do?
Your in the public eye and your doing something that everyone tells you is inspiring a lot of people and you think your helping. Then you find out that its actually making things worse do you ?
A) Forget you found that out and continue doing it anyway finding ways to justify that its ok, too afraid to change and to give up the gravy train popularity it brings? it seems so pretty, positive, easy answers and everyone loves you for doing it, why give that up? Why not just pretend you never heard it or does not resonate with you? ...
B ) stop doing it immediately and beat yourself up give up, becoming depressed then go do something completely different?. Or
C) bite the bullet, be willing to see it for what it is, that its not pretty or positive at all and you can risk losing lots of friends and followers as its not what they want to hear & admit it openly and expose it and do what u can to rectify it and turn it around into something helpful again, as it must be done ..
I choose C, hence why you see me now speaking up and against the dangers of spirituality. Which one would you choose?
 

If you want to know the whole story why i am no longer a spiritual speaker and why i speak out exposing it now, then i suggest for you to read from part 1-5 bali blog series.

 
Memoirs of a Former Mystic

About these blogs:
They are my own personal dismantling EOF story so as to help others understand us and The EOF project, they are meant to be complimentary and to assist others to better understand and apply the Orientations
They are a journey and exploration of my own personal confusion towards rational logical thinking that has helped myself and others to see our own cognitive dissonance that expose the many things that we hide from ourselves and why.
I myself am shocked to realize that i had to no idea how conditioned and problematic these spiritual beliefs were until i wrote these blogs. How these beliefs effected every aspect of my life and created so many unnessary problems and made me so afraid to even dare think or imagine my life and who i was with out them. The contradictions i had to want to understand and not at the same time, watching both of these elements fight with in me planting mine fields in my mind of self destruction when i forced myself to think with out my spiritual beliefs which acted like a drug for me, often times taking over my mind and thinking for me. This was scary but how could i get myself to stop protecting these beliefs that led me to understand why others are so keen to chose irrationality then logic when it comes to their ideologies. Which is one of the many reasons that has led to me speaking up about why we are so concerned about this movement and the dangers of these beliefs.
So these blogs are also an invitation and challenge to detect what is confusion and what is fact. To challenge a person to ask themselves are my beliefs thinking for me rather then my own mind?
This becomes more apparent and easier to detect and reduce ones confusion when one finishes the whole series in order. Then one can see your own results on how you scored with exploring and detecting your own cognitive biases..
best of luck..
when your finished the series let me know your results.
Note- the Bali blog series is not complete yet i am currently working on part 6.
warm regards
jessica
 


 Testimonials
 
-Wow that is tricky as SO much happens in this blog, it is easily the most powerful one yet and truly mind blowing as reading it makes one start to REALLY Think and Q. ALL that they believe and start to see the insanity of the programs running us and provides the opening for REAL Understanding of what we individually & collectively struggle with.   

I could NOT put it down and read all of Part 2 from 1-4:30am, it was amazing. Now to read the entire thing over a few times, its FULL of gems for Dismantling!!! Diego it was awesome to learn more about you, wow. And Margarita THK YOU for sharing so much of yourself too, MUCH Gratitude to All of you & Gogi Bunny. 
-Shar


-I would see this blog as a turning point in your relationship with yourself and with others, you break all the fences and you let us see into your experience in a really honest and fresh way. I also think it is really sincere and we can feel how you feel and we share this trip/journey with you. It is also funny by multiple times and sometimes it's like having a glimpse on Baby Jess too.. I mean that we can see the child girl in you, even if at the same time you have a lot of struggle there. It is like are discovery.
- Susie Kiou

-I loved these blogs, they are long but well worth the read, they are so addicting that after a while you forget how long they are and get upset when the end of the blog parts are reached. I see now how detrimental is the new (c)age. Really. People, want to feel better to hide their insecurities, and wear a mask of love and light. Once you expose them, they get really upset and offended. Anyway, I m looking forward to reading more. Also, reading when Diego had to spend one year doing social work and what he had to go through was not "cool" at all!! The thing that was most surprising, is how people protect themselves with their fears, I know sounds contradictory, but we often do that. We know that we are getting somewhere with our inner discovery, and when it gets uncomfortable, we allow the fear to take over again( and it protect us in the form of a new age dogma, religion, program, etc ). Also the girl from Finland that was "clear" fall so easily into confusion because of that guy. As you said before, love can be so destructive!

-It seems that we are in a constant pendulum, we are so fragile, and we could fall at any moment from one belief to another. We do not want to feel uncomfortable, and we ll do whatever to avoid that. Unless, we get "messy" and we start cleaning up all the toxic beliefs in our mind, nothing will change. the soil of our mind, once is being cleaned up becomes a fertile environment for observation and evolution.
-Sonia Comellas
 
- I really enjoyed these blog, my faves so far Blog 3, 4 and especially 5 as you dig deeper and show more of what we cannot see.
- Paola Cedrola
 
- I am only maybe a 15th of the way through this and there are already four or five things I was dying to cut and paste in a share, it's incredible, it pains me that I'm going to have to put it away in a few minutes for another time. frown :(
So, I stayed up all night reading them, I'm about a fifth of the way through.  :) Your idea of "blog post" is pretty unusual, lol.

I am so amazed by so many aspects of this little book you've written. In a way, I feel EOF isn't really complete without this perspective on it that you're providing through the blogs. It's like, the orientations are only telling part of the story but the story seems much more complete when we also see it through your eyes, your personal process of dismantling, your inquiries. I am humbled and amazed at your honesty, willingness to lay bare that part of your mind that you are learning to be free from. It's clear how much pain and difficulty is involved with confronting this head-on, in a way I feel jealous that you have someone to call you on every conditioned act but I also feel how difficult that could be, I'm not sure I would be strong enough.
-Blakita Nova
 
 
http://www.jessicamystic.com/blogs-memoirs-of-a-former-mystic.html
 
 
 

Some videos on why i am no longer a spiritual speaker

"We have been suppressing ourselves for millennia in the name of illusions that we call our beliefs, ideals, god and spirituality.
Its not that we are excluding just religions but all beliefs, not that beliefs  in themselves are bad. Beliefs on there own are fine. The problem comes when we do not question or think outside of our beliefs. When we think we are our beliefs thus letting them think for us, then we get very protective and irrational to anything that challenges our beliefs. Which then can easily makes a person violent and unstable. This is not a theory or an exaggeration this is history, this is a fact, this is life, this is our conditioned mind.
There is no logical and rational and intelligent self-realization and understanding in gratifying ourselves with and through acts of yearning and believing in abstract speculations built up on & by illusions.. there is only self-perpetuation of irrationality, with its everlasting weight of fights, antagonisms and human miseries..
He or she who follows a speaker, a guru, a preacher, whoever, including the writer of this post.. signs his or her course of self indoctrination, which is a psychological malediction! Never follow the speaker.. strictly ! Understand the contents and think: the speaker is irrelevant! Find out for yourself what's is fake and what is fact.. You all have a duty: it's called intelligence.
 
 
 
 
I can not ignore the dangers in the spiritual movement. I have to point it out, maybe others will see what i am talking about and the danger in it.
I can not ignore it because i am responsible and most people who follow me are into spirituality and so they get confused.
When a person follower spirituality, new age, beliefs in general that allow the belief to think for them then a person gets into all kinds of unpleasant situations.
I have had people asking me for help, out of the confusion or wanting to understand how they ended up being used and abused by people they thought were spiritual but were just sexual perverts or exploiters.
These adds to the confusion even more so for people because they sincerely thought that they were on the path that they were becoming more spiritual, but instead they just became more psychologically unstable.
These are the people that try to find solutions in the world but only end up making things worse because they are totally confused. We have to look at the spiritual movement from a clinical view to as the more spirituality is on the rise so is depression/mental instablitity because they are linked.
The more depressed a person is the more unstable and desperate they become. They cling to spiritual stratagems of all kinds and the more confused they become and the more dangerous they and their beliefs become. Its about damage prevention not comforting people after all the damage is done so it to happen again and again.


The shallow pudding of the so called ''new age movements or spiritual movement''  it makes people intellectually and emotionally dysfunctional because of its deleterious brainwashing aimed to subdue our possible rational reasoning, understanding and private thinking..
Intelligent questioning, sane critical thinking, are in fact surreptitiously and hypocritically substituted with the jargon “negative emotions'', or (up to the ridiculous) ''low vibrations''!

Intelligence and reason are actually what can defend us from abuse and exploitation.

We are looking for people who are really interested in gaining a deeper understanding of their own mind, without putting any boxes of labels around it. We find that spirituality is deeply flawed and just as superficial as religiosity, in many ways, its a group that sees many "positive" ways of life, as just another type of escape. If the thought of thinking independently of "your" beliefs offends you, then this might not be the right group for you.

We are selective to who we work with. We want people who are willing to inquire past their beliefs.
If you want to find out more consider contacting us or joining our EOF Facebook group
https://www.facebook.com/groups/ENDOFfearPROJECT/